Didnt you know you were a saint?

load_this_gun @ 2004-10-02T12:59:00

2004-10-02T17:01:39Z

yo NIGGAS!!!

new journal.

______igotmoves

add me cause you love me.

and if you dont love me then love me and add me.

load_this_gun @ 2004-08-28T02:27:00

2004-09-06T16:42:31Z

load_this_gun @ 2004-08-02T14:01:00

2004-08-02T18:14:23Z

went to btbam last night.

ryan and his friend bret got kicked out. so i follwed. his other friend got kicked in the face and couldnt see. so they left and because i had left the palladium steps i couldnt get back in.

so it was a waste of money.

but i stayed out there, alone on the steps for a bit. +i met the guy from walls of jericho and glass casket. but any ways, i got back in =o].

some kids who were outside smoking asked me why i was all alone. so i told them and he was like, ya ill get you back in. so he put his arm around me and we just walked back in. it was so simple. so funny.

i saw a bunch of kids i knew. A BUNCH. crazy brandon was there. h kept stage diving. haha. some other kids i know, cough cough.

i lost lori at the end of the night. i guess her they were all looking for me. i couldnt find them any where. i was offered so many rides from every one else too, but i said no. i was left at honey farms with no ride and was forced to call home. i got home safely, dont you worry!

oh god, i wanna go to the show on sunday so bad.<33

well its hot and sticky and im out, bitches.

<33

load_this_gun @ 2004-08-01T01:37:00

2004-08-01T05:40:52Z

oh lord.

between the buried and me<3 in 18 hours.

cantxfuckingxwait.

going with lori<3ryan<3and mike...no heart for him. hes way to hard x core for me. haha.

napoleon dynamite is my hero. i will marry him some day. just you wait and see.

gah. work at 8 am. its 1:40 am. who needs sleep?

im out<33

load_this_gun @ 2004-07-29T11:55:00

2004-07-29T16:01:37Z

went to ge see napoleon dynotmite the other night. haha lori...your moms going to collage.

i went fishing! we used live bait...ew. and every time he went to go hook another fishy i was like..no not pedro! i named the all. i dont like fishing. thres too mny bugs.

my west nile virus went away and thats a plus.

i did nothing at all yesterday. but i did however almost hang my self. my mom was watching the democratic speaches. god she needs to lay off the politics and try some thing new...like a boyfriend or some thing. my mom + politics = stad back.

ATTENTION: my dear mother has just informed me that blueberries improve memry in rats. call the local newstation.

yes, i am aware that i look like a crack head there, thank you very much.

Mr. tanski, aka Alex took this pic the last week of school i think. i look so happy!

ya soo....im out<33

load_this_gun @ 2004-07-26T19:02:00

2004-07-26T23:05:22Z

hello there every one. im bored. i woke up at 1:30 pm and ive been sitting at my computer ever since. it sucks not having a life.

ahem ahem ahem. i think all you sXe kids should join the sxe community.

damn_sxe_kids

every bodys doing it!

and another thing. im bored.

<33

home sweet home.

2004-07-25T22:27:56Z

i did go to sixflags that day:).

maine was fun. loris my homeslice. chris brinzo was up there. so was a bunch of other kids from worcester. and here i am thinking it was a vacation from the people i know. silly me.

a drunk canadian walked into the girls bathroom friday night. lori went in to tell him and he had the stall door open, taking a piss, talking on a walkie talkie. she screamed and a ladie in one of the showers randomly started screaming. TOO funny. lori was run down by a small albino child. i got a nice tan. i love the lemonade! theres prolly still sea water in my ears. i brought home half the beach in my bathing suit. i met some annoying kids from leiscter that are shawny's friends. i rode a bike for the first tiem since i was like 6 and uh...ran into lori bc i was distracted by the beautiful canadian scenery...;oP*

and that sums up vacation.

i got into a massive fight with my mother. ya. shes fucking annoying. she called my job and quit for me. but im still working....and ya. im GROUNDED. ha. what a joke. she doesnt know how to ground me.

for all you people who think your parents are bad. try having a skitzophrenic mother...whos been diagnosed with paranoia and shes physically disabled...and having a father who hasnt bothered to call for 2 years...who is also a parapledgic. seriously. re-evaluate yor lives befor you complain.

ALEX finally made a journal. good for you alex. :o).

i miss him so friggin much. wow.

im out.

<33

IN MAINE BITCHES!

2004-07-19T02:54:46Z

im in maine with lori and your not! your moms in maine! mwa hahah haha. were in the rec room and your not! hahaha. these kids are ANNOYING...

help<----lori speaking.

welll so how is it going its lori now, sam is argueing with some kid about his age... lalala help. im just gonna sit here and do absolutley nothing ok... so ahhh... i love the penis? i love ryyyyyyyyan :-P

so... how are you, HE BROKE IT. he broke the keyboard.... lalala

VAGINA

i love clocks

pennies are cool

hammers are my friend we arefriends

long time no see?

2004-07-15T16:32:52Z

oh..alot has been accomplished since the last update...

i went to newport RI on sunday. we walked around. didnt really go to the beach though. till after dark.

i went to friendlys and the mall with mary and judy on monday. then we hung out outside of judys house and my ma nadgalyn<3 came out and chilled with us. i missed her. ^.^

tuesday- i worked...Happy 16th Birthday to Samantha :o)

i got...a TV..lol..passes to six flags from my sister and tom, and my little brother gave me $2.10. so cute<3..oh and i got nice orange roses. my favorite! my godfather sent me a check. my REAL dad...haha. nothing again. my mom gave me some candy and little things. w.e.

wednesday i worked and WALKED home. :o( ...i cleaned my whole room yesterday. its SPOTLESS. just dont look in my closet. ^.^ ....

and today would be thursday. i might go to sixflags!

well im out. gotta shower ;o)

<33

[.in a world of sluts we keep the wet dream alive.]

2004-07-06T04:22:50Z

havent updated in a couple days.

burn outs were fun.

work was gay. what a surprise!

i miss him so sooo much.

went to the providence place mall today. MASSIVE mall. i bought pajama pants and we went to fire and ice. blah. i spent 70$ today on gas and food. no one else had too much money so i chipped in.

we got lost on our way back. forst we couldnt find the onramp to 95 south. then we just didnt take the worcester exit. i guess they thought there was another exit towards worcester and there WASNT. so we ended up out near boston. we needed gas and i swear we mustve drove by a dozen CLOSED gas stations. only one open. thank god for those high way miles.

long day. im out<33

forget me...its that simple

2004-07-01T19:23:11Z

who would rob a grinder? losers...they live next door to the place they robbed too. oh lord.

gah. work...dumb.

i went to go see DODGEBALL last night. that movie is sooo funny. JONIE LOVES CHACHI! haha. me and shawny think thats so funny. the movie is so random.

got home late last night. went right to bed. slept nice. :o)

burn outs tonight. i cant wait. gunna go after work tomorrow too. :o). and saturday and sunday. fireworks on sunday, at east park.

i miss him. my ankles are itchy. i bought cool pajama pants!

well im going to go get my check from work and find some body to go to the burn outs with. :op*.

<33

me and lori....undercover!

2004-06-30T13:19:01Z

i had a great week so far!

monday night- i slept over loris! w00t! her sister picked me up and we were going to go to the solomon pond mall, but we got sidetracked and went to go look at pretty houses. :op*. then when we got back on 290 we got on going twoards worcester. and we couldnt find another on ramp because of the stupid project-290 so we went to auburn instead.
that night we went for a walk with ryan, loris boyfriend. i was running down a hill and i whipped out like 10 feet. then when i was walking back up it i fell again, in the same spot. we camped out that night, in a tent in loris back yard. loris mommy was spying on us. haha.

tuesday- i woke up to the wonderful sound of RAIN on the tent at 2 am. but we werent getting wet so it didnt matter. then again at 9 am i woke up to loris mother mowing the lawn. so we woke up and poked around ate some breakfast WENT TO QUIZNOS for a FREE sandwich. yes i said it..FREE. every thing was free! haha. the drink and the chips! it was a grand opening. so yeeeeah. lori is going to work there. then we finally got our asses to the solomon pond mall. i bought 8 cds:op* and new taking back sunday shirt later on (i went to newbury comics too) undies and COOL SOCKS! i spent ALL my money! w00t!

wednesday- hasnt started yet. :o(. im bored!

well im going to go shower. im out<3

<333 i love YOU

load_this_gun @ 2004-06-28T09:06:00

2004-06-28T13:15:32Z

haha. last night me and mary were driving down main street and some asian guy was picking his nose. we pulled up beside him and started laughing hysterically. oh lord.

i guess i act really "immature" when im with my mary so what ever. at least i have fun.

yesterday we went to go see chris sargintelli at his work in cvs. haha. we couldnt find him though. then we saw this girl who works there yelling at some kid who was back in storage and said...ont point at him, dogs cant point. we knew it was chris then and then he stepped out. so funny. :op*.

:op* i cant wait for the burn outs! i had so much fun last year! and i hope to have MORE fun this year. w00t! der...

man...im SO happy. no clue! cant stop with the smile!

i love YOU!

<33

gaaaah! :oD!!

2004-06-28T12:58:45Z

me and my marymary and my judyjudy went for chineeeeeese food! mary is a crazy niccer driver! scares teh crap out of me. she raced some guy and just like...oh lord i thought i was going to die.

madonna last night. mwa haha. worcester cetner blvd. was lined both sides of the street with limos. there was a red one. i wanna red limo!!

how much do you love me? enough to buy me a red limo?? :oP*

ner ner ner! <--so interesting!

well my computer is being dumb and this prolly wont update right soo....

im out<33

looking up ^^^^^

2004-06-27T22:18:48Z

:o)
my week is going sooo good! im so happy! im just a little ray of sunshine today! and i will be for like... the rest of the summer!! very few things can bring me down. im so happpyyyyyyyyyyy!

i worked today. it pissed me off that other *ahem* people ge more in tips then me and i do more then them. but its okay. because either way im VERY happy. VERY.

.:: does little dance::.

this summer. :oD. i cant wait.

im out<33

im so happy!! im ecstatic!! w00000000000000t!

2004-06-26T15:15:05Z

oh my lord. i cant wait to see him. he makes me so happy :op* i uhhh...REALLY REALLY like him ALOT!

rawr! i made 60$ last night! then another 40$ for cleaning. w00t!

christina drove me home last night. she does staffing for the centrum. so when ever she needs me shes gunna call me in. she took my number down. she said they couldve usedme on the madonna show this coming week but theyre all staffed now. itd just be doing consession work. 9$ an hour. :oD !!

my birthday is in 17 days! dont forget it! or or or or...i might just cry!

gah get over it. that was all seven months ago. please get over it. ner ner ner...

breath in for luck breath in so deep this air is blessed you share with me this night is wild so calm and dull these hearts they race for self control your legs are smoot as they graze mine were doing fine were doing nothing at all my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me so wont you kill me so i die happy (duh duh duh duh duh duh duh) my heart is yours to fill or burst to break or bury or wear as jewerly which ever you prefer...

i dont feel like typing the rest of the song any more. la la la.

today i walked down my stairs and saw my sisters boyfriend. and it scared him...i guess im never home enough for ppl to reconize me? hmmm....

i am a sexy lady! hahahahaha.

well im out and uhhh....see ya!

<33333

i love him...and i miss him.

2004-06-25T18:48:03Z

three chalk out lines sleep in the dirty street and in our beds under the sheets theyre the halo of guilt hanging around your neck next to the rosary you count were falling asleep and were praying to treat the symptoms of letting goof all our hope. since we cant compete with martyred saints we dose our selves in gasoline and hang our bodies from the lampposts so our shadows turn into bright lights white light white heat well make cause were blacking out in the center lane well sway to the beat spill all the ink no revisions do you hear the church bells ringing? wake up wake up in n outline and try to speak with the shattered voice of the lives we lead we have slept too long between the bullet holes and stained glass windows state? when we repent we fall on the page read in the magazineswe are symptoms of letting go of all our hope some day well be complete like modern saints baptize our kids in gasoline and hang our doubts up in cathedrals so that they turn to fate in the colored sunlight red rain red rain well make as were blacking out in the center lane do you hear the church bells ringing? they ring for you. we woke up this morning to a street filled with a thousand burnng crosses and what we thought was the sunrise was just passing headlights still the choir girls sing oh lord can you save us sing hallelujah they are symptons of letting go all our hope were faling asleep with open eyes fallin asleep inside the chapel falling asleep in chalk outlines falling asleep as the head lights pass us by...

thursday man...had them stuck in my head all morning. i love the way with words they have. the "flow" of it all. lol. i love it.

work. its gay. the pay sucks. some times those waitresses are just sooooo annoying. and theyre breaking the law by not giving a certain percentageof thier pay to me. whats 5$ to them. theyve been telling me that i dont have any responsibilites..nothing i need to pay. grrr...both my parents are disabled and not working. so uhh...what pays the bills. ive told them that,,,yet they give me less every time i work. sooo gay. so incredibly homosexual. pisses me off.

this chair is hurting my ass.

blah. me n my mary mary and heather reno had so much fun. :op* we went to the pool hall. lol. it was like china town in there so we left and went down to wendys and met some ppl. i got yelled at by the person in wendys bc i was yelling when iw as trying to order my food from the back seat.

then wednesday night i slept ove there and yeah it was fun. we went to wendys again and uhh...yeah. we went to the mall that morning and um...met some guy who works in spencers gifts, then we went to break with him and talked about <3atreyu. then i had to work.

dolci gave me a ride home from work. we stayed till like 11:30 to get the maxeen room all set. so tiring. but fun for some reason. :oD.

almost my 16th birthday. july 13th bitches! dont forget it!

well im out. bye bye!

this is what happens when i leave my AIM on and my brother alone downstairs...

2004-06-23T01:35:18Z

Slipknot951753: hey
xxlosthero1: sams not here at the moment
Slipknot951753: o
xxlosthero1: im sams brother
Slipknot951753: o ya
xxlosthero1: whats up
Slipknot951753: nothin
xxlosthero1: like yugio
Slipknot951753: do i?
Slipknot951753: no
xxlosthero1: huh
Slipknot951753: what
xxlosthero1: what do you like
Slipknot951753: nothing
xxlosthero1: why
Slipknot951753: idk
Slipknot951753: so do u have any secrets to tell me about u sister
xxlosthero1: lol
xxlosthero1: maby
Slipknot951753: o ya y dont u tell me
xxlosthero1: whu are you
Slipknot951753: ur sisters best friend
xxlosthero1: ya right
Slipknot951753: how do u know u dont know me
xxlosthero1: whats your name
Slipknot951753: steve
Slipknot951753: u dont know me
xxlosthero1: toms freind steve
Slipknot951753: but me and her r best friends in school
Slipknot951753: well i have a friend tom so i quess so
Slipknot951753: so how about them secrets
xxlosthero1: ok
xxlosthero1: were do we begin
Slipknot951753: from the beging
xxlosthero1: weres that
Slipknot951753: u tel me
xxlosthero1: i dont now
xxlosthero1: you tell me
Slipknot951753: ur the one who knows the secrets
Slipknot951753: anything embarsing
xxlosthero1: dounut were
Slipknot951753: what
xxlosthero1: mmmmm steve arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Slipknot951753: what the hell u talking about
xxlosthero1: you
Slipknot951753: what about me
xxlosthero1: your tasty
Slipknot951753: what
Slipknot951753: what do u mean im tasty
xxlosthero1: u taste like pizza
Slipknot951753: how do i taste like pizza
xxlosthero1: or sloppy jo
Slipknot951753: ok i wanted to know stuff about ur sister not me
xxlosthero1: enouph about sam more about you
Slipknot951753: u didnt say anything about sam yet
xxlosthero1: i said you tasted like pizza
Slipknot951753: ya that was about me not sam
xxlosthero1: hoh
xxlosthero1: how
xxlosthero1: i have short term memory
Slipknot951753: because u said i taste like pizza not sam
xxlosthero1: french fries arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Slipknot951753: wait a minute
Slipknot951753: this isnt sams brother this is sam
xxlosthero1: no
xxlosthero1: sam likes tim
Slipknot951753: wrong
xxlosthero1: how
Slipknot951753: odk
Slipknot951753: idk*
Slipknot951753: but everyone knows that
xxlosthero1: i am david
Slipknot951753: prove it
xxlosthero1: sam likes care bears
Slipknot951753: how does that tell me that ur her brother
xxlosthero1: how do i prove it
Slipknot951753: idk u tell me
Slipknot951753: who is sams best friend
Slipknot951753: hello
Slipknot951753: r u still there
xxlosthero1: hashahaha
xxlosthero1: that was my little brither
Slipknot951753: o ya
Slipknot951753: was it really
Slipknot951753: where were u
xxlosthero1: upsyairs
Slipknot951753: o he told me all these secret about u
xxlosthero1: haha
xxlosthero1: i have the convo dummy
Slipknot951753: no he must have exited out after he told me
xxlosthero1: lol
Slipknot951753: xxlosthero1: so u want me to tell u some secrets befor she gets back
Slipknot951753: thats what he said
Slipknot951753: i said i quess so but i dont really wanna get in her buissness
Slipknot951753: and then he told me everything
Slipknot951753: do u understand now
xxlosthero1: haha
xxlosthero1: he said yopu tates like pizza!
Slipknot951753: u mean thats what u said
Slipknot951753: i known it wa u the whole time
xxlosthero1: this is sam NOW

gotta love a sarcastic ten year old and ....ryan aka steve.

mer.

2004-06-23T00:17:15Z

me and mary. watch out niccer!

argh. my brother is annoying. he just told me that alcoholics are awesome. haha.

alcoholism is bad. mmmmmm kay?

YOU WANT A FRESH ONE??

ahh good times brought to you by too much caffien.

well i otta go. i miss HIM but i got my mary. :op*

im out<33

stolen from lori<3

2004-06-22T16:00:03Z

Samantha is ______.
Samantha thinks ______.
I want Samantha to ______ me.
If I were alone in a room with Samantha I would ______.
I think Samantha should ______.
Samantha needs ______.
Samantha reminds me of ______.
I want to buy ______ for Samantha.
If I could describe Samantha in one word it would be ______.
Samantha will never ______.
Samantha can ______.
I hope Samantha ______.
I ______ Samantha because she is ______.
The best thing about Samantha is ______.
The worst thing about Samantha is _______.
To make Samantha better when she is sad, I will ______.
Everyone ______ Samantha.
I would never ______ Samantha.
Samantha should learn to _____.
I am ______ with Samantha.
My favorite physical features on Samantha are her ______.
If I had a nickname for Samantha it would be ______.
I would love to ______ Samantha .
If there was one thing I would say to Samantha right now it would be ______.
Lori is a bad ______.
Samantha sucks at ______.
Samantha is good at ______.
Samantha has the worst ______.
Samantha can always ______.
I can’t help but ______ Samantha.
I want to ______ Samantha.
BY: ____________

its girls like you make me think im better off home on a saturday night

2004-06-21T13:05:23Z

work again today. on a monday yes. samantha is working days now. haha. im on a mothers hours!

tim is in kansas city for nationals. lucky him. he gets that goood food out there. bbq and shit. tim will eat any thing though.

tody is my managers dads funeral after service at maxwells. im working on that function. sad though. he was a cool guy. a nice one. i know where david gets his sense of humor.

gus is an asshole. he almost fired tim for not putting a sparkler on a birthday cake.he was seriously screaming at tim and laura. pretty homosexual if you ask me. tim leaving gill is leaving and andrew is leaving. maxwells is going down hill. im gunna leave too. friendlys is better then this shit.

we went to friendlys yesterday and steve was working. too funny. toooooo funny. mr culinary...mr fournier must be proud!

best friends means you pull the trigger best friends mean you get what you deserve! haha. <3 it. havent listened to tbs in soooo long.

she says come on come on lets just get this over with...

^^sorta the way i am. :ox just kidding*

well i have to be at work for 11 so im out. see ya!

last night i swallowed liquor nd a lighter and this morning i threw up fire.

2004-06-19T13:34:25Z

gah. worked last night. work today and tomorrow. i need money.

so tired. i wish i was in my bed with him. <3

last night some guy kept like..talking to me and checking me out and shit so my manager made a sign that said "samantha likes you" and kept flashing it to him. kinda embarassing. so yeah. its like...come on now. im 15. cant be as bad as the 25 year old who i used to work with who told me he was gunna go to hell because of me. great...now im jail bait.

my managers daddy died. :( he was all sad so i made him write my name on the floor plan and smell the paper. it smelt like blueberry muffins. mwa haha. made him laugh i dunno why though.

i found out that gary, one of the coolest guys i work with, is dying from AIDS.
hes one of the most professional guys i work with. and hes still really funny. hes been at maxwells for 15 years. its kinda weird dor me. ive never met any one who had AIDS befor. hes gay :o/

well im out. im gunna be having some company in a bit sooo...

<33sam

ahhh...

2004-06-18T04:22:25Z

long day. too much shit going on. tim and kay were on t.v. for winning vica.

the computer is acting so gay. i need a new one. donations any body?

well its late and im out.

<3

bored...

2004-06-16T21:34:46Z

Your Homicidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn

Your name:

Weapon of Choice:

Flaming underpants

Your Favorite Target:

Pornstars

Your Kill Count:

235,363,572

Your Battle Cry:

"Who put the bomp in the bomp-a-bomp-a-bomp?"

Years You Spend in Jail:

How Much Money In Damages You Cause:

$149,729,337,380,319

Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 43%

Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

Spare me just three last words iloveyou is all she heard ill wait for you but i cant wait forever...

2004-06-16T21:22:35Z

i cant stand drama queens.

hey all you whiny ass holes! take a gun, put it to your heads, and pull the trigger. because all your so called problems are all self inflicted.

yes i do realize that i too am i drama queen. but come on now....enough is enough.

oh and i dont like those girls who are any thing like that girl, susan. if youre susan. go kill your self. please. i hate when people say theyre bisexual for other guys attention. and ya, its so obvious that your such a fake. when i girl gos out with a girl and a guy at the same time, its a givin.

haha. im such a complainer. you should hear me in work. im always like...my back hurts my foot hurts my boob hurts.

haha. dori, this chick i work with...wqas opening a bottle of champeighn to make mamosas with and the cork popped off and hit her dead center in her nipple. too funny. it then bounced off her boob and hit the ceiling and fell down and hit tim the bartender.

well im so bouncy right now. so im gunna go jump around and annoy my mom.

adn im going some where later. dunno wehre though. see ya!

by you. and i love you.